Showing posts with label disengaging the ego. Show all posts
Showing posts with label disengaging the ego. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

2012 and All is Well

It's here: this much prophesied and awaited year.  No weather disasters so far.  No nuclear disasters, no collapsing buildings, no comets hitting the planet.  The stock market has soared.  And while my belief for many years has been that nothing dramatic would happen externally as we enter the last phase of this portal, (which I see as having begun in earnest on 10/28/11), I still find the calm we are experiencing right now, to be interesting.  We have grown quite used to intense storms, earthquakes and the like.  Could that be on the wane? Could the worst be over?

Logically of course, that would make no sense.  We have not done what is necessary to repair the damage we Earthlings have done to our planet.  Yet, perhaps we have really reached the tipping point where our consciousness is creating a new, non-linear reality, bypassing the mechanics of physics.  Or put another way, we are creating a new, multidimensional reality that we can live in, still in human form but released from 3D limitation; a multidimensional reality where we solve our problems simply by surrounding them with the consciousness of the solution.

The energy of 2012 for me personally, has been one of going deeper inside.  It hit me like a bolt of lightening on the 31st, that it was time to take off that extra 10 lbs I've been carrying around, and that I was going to do this by going on a liver-cleanse diet. This means I have to put a lot of focus on when I eat, and how to create meals and snacks that are slightly different than normal, and make sure I get certain supplements and proscribed juices throughout the day.  Simultaneously, as 2012 rolled in, I made good on my commitment to do daily multidimensional meditations in addition to my spiritual practice.

I have no sessions scheduled and nowhere to teach this week.  I have total space for this cleansing and clearing of the old and opening to the new.  I find myself in a new place of quiet.  I'm being more mindful of not just what I eat, but about the experience of eating, so that I go more deeply into tasting the essence of this wonderful healthy food.  Since the meditations I've been doing are not very conducive to articulation, I am just sitting in the energy of them rather than trying to write about it. And while we've had an easy winter this year in Western North Carolina, since the new year the temperatures have suddenly dropped and my appreciation of watching and feeling the fire of our wood stove has concurrently risen. Our first small snow fall intensified this and the stillness of life in the depths of winter is all around me, peaceful, beautiful, slow... and helping me reconnect with the larger Stillness.

Perhaps this is what 2012 is about after-all.  As we release the concept of time, we find Stillness in these natural rhythms, in these gentle waves that correspond to the time waves of 9D or to the eternal Now. The essential energy of this Stillness is love.  When I sit in this Stillness, I experience love flowing through every cell of my body.  Any thoughts that arise from this place within me can only create that which is calm, compassionate and joyful. Realizing there are people just like me all over our beautiful planet that are sitting in the same Stillness, holding the same frequency of Divine Love, then I cease to doubt that we are creating a New Earth, that we are in the portal that will ultimately end wars and famine and cruelty and suffering; that will change all of our 3D reality.  Certainly it feels as if it is changing mine.

Planet Earth is a most amazing being, and the celestial lights that surround her are equally amazing.  She is the magnet that draws all the intelligence of those lights to her.  She has a vastness of Spirit that allows her to hold within her cells the mystery of all that is, all that was, all that may come to be. And just like our mother planet, we have the same abilities. But we need to be very quiet, we need to go deep inside, we need to keep opening our heart and our high heart ever wider.

So Brother and Sister Earthlings, join me in entering the Stillness.  Take those deep centering quiet breaths.  Let yourself release those old limited beliefs.  Release all those feelings you may have been holding from old wounds.  Release all the pressures you have put on yourself;  release those worries;  release those fears; release your ambitions.  Just for Now.  And give yourself a moment, for that's all it really takes, to go in and access that fertile Silence that resides in us all; that creative Stillness that is nothing and everything simultaneously.  And hey, should you happen to release a few unneeded pounds in the process, all the better.








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Thursday, November 17, 2011

In the Now, for Now

Greetings Brother and Sister Earthlings,

It feels like years since I've written here -- but of course it has only been two or so weeks. My cognitive mind cannot grasp that fact, and perhaps that is what is meant by the phrase the end of time.  The old sign-posts or "time posts" if you will, no longer seem to anchor anything in my life.  I still have an appointment book and thus I still have appointments, but something profound has seemed to have shifted in my psyche and perhaps it really is an aftermath of both the 10/28/11 and 11/11/11portals.

A bit of a personal recap before I go deeper into a multidimensional perspective on this.  My husband and I spent a few days in Asheville at the beginning of the month both because a dear friend of ours, Thea Summer Deer, was having a book-signing for her wonderful new book:  "THE WISDOM OF THE PLANET DEVAS:  Herbal Medicine for a New Earth" and because we had a free extra night at our favorite hotel.  Getting away from home, even though we were less than an hour geographically, and immersing ourselves in the wonderful culture and cuisine of Asheville, helped me realize that I really needed a break. That while I work for myself and create my own time-tables (there's that interesting conceptual word again), I was working too much... pushing too hard.  I returned feeling refreshed.  And immediately dove into preparing a teaching that I was offering on multidimensionality, the next day.

That next morning I moseyed down the hill to the Venus Rising Sanctuary which is just a stone's throw from my door and in the Isis Cove community where I live.  Linda Star Wolf had asked me to teach a small segment on using our multidimensional nature for our emotional and spiritual healing, to the students at a month-long training  sponsored by Venus Rising Institute for the Shamanic Arts.  As I breathed in the beautiful mountain air on this sunny, crisp Fall day, my heart was soaring.  First of all, I love that I can just walk to where I'm going to teach -- to me that represents a perfect life.  And second, well perhaps not in that order, I was so happy to be able to teach multidimensionality to this evolved group of people, and third, still not in that order, I was excited because I had added a new element to the teaching:  and while it is a complex theory, I found a way to do this that was simple and accessible.

The teaching went perfectly.  It was a large group, but not so large that I couldn't connect with everyone on a personal level.  I introduced the idea that now in our evolution we are not just able to live in the Above and the Below simultaneously (a key point in my earlier talks and workshops,) but we are able to live in the Before and the Beyond as well.  I see this visually.  The Above and Below are about our ability to hold the frequencies of the 9 dimensional vertical axis:  1D, of course, being the Earth's iron crystal core and 9D, Galactic Center.  So one might see a vertical line going from way below one's feet and extending way above one's head.  And then the axis for the Before and Beyond being horizontal... the Before extending in a straight line from the center of our heart chakra out our back, and through the time lines that our souls experience as "past."  In that time line, our inner teenager, our inner children, and the energy of all our past lives stretch out behind us.  And then the Beyond is the part of that line that extends forward from our heart and holds all of our future potentiality or our imaginal cells as Star Wolf writes in her latest book, VISIONARY SHAMANISM.

All 4 segments if you will, meet at a point in the center of our hearts.  And it is here that we access the Now.  It is here that time stops and simultaneously contains all we ever were, all we ever will be, AND all 9 dimensions of our nature.  It is here that we meet our inner child and inner teenager and call on a wise and loving part of ourselves from that timeline to nurture and re-raise these parts of ourselves.  And it is at this point, the perfect balance of the fulcrum of all our parts, that we live in a state of grace and ease.

Nice huh?  I was euphoric.  And then within two days, I became very ill.  Symptom-wise the flu I came down with was almost identical to the flu I had last year at this time, and it was going through that illness in 2010 that ultimately gave rise to this blog.  Just like last year, this year's flu hit me just when I was shifting my energetic frequency -- making another leap up the evolutionary spiral so to speak.

Being sick allowed me another 3 work-free days, and then voila... it was 11/11/11.  I was finally feeling well enough that I could attend a women's spirituality group for a few hours late morning, rest in the afternoon and attend a larger community gathering in the evening, where we were doing a ritual for this very special portal.  I had been asked to call in the Above as part of calling in the directions at the beginning of the ritual.  I have not had much exposure to Native American teachings although I feel great reverence for them.  Still I have never been very comfortable calling in the Earthly directions, but the ABOVE, now there was a place that I could relate to.  Still, I still was not back to full health or energy.  While I had pondered how I wanted to call in the ABOVE, I hadn't written anything down or in any way practiced what I would say.  As we began, I realized this was not true for some of the others:  they were sounding mighty polished in their presentation. I asked my ego to calm down and step back and just let whatever was supposed to occur, occur.  As I stepped forward, a powerful force took me over.  Perhaps the orator of my BEFORE or a voice from my BEYOND... whoever it was swept me away and I had to make it an act of will to stop speaking, as I felt that I had called in the ABOVE as effectively as I could and there was no need to continue.  I could palpably feel the power that had surged through me.

This is new territory for me.  I know that I am a gifted teacher and I know that I have done a reasonably good job of quieting both my mind and my ego in my day to day life; more often than not, my Spirit is in charge. But the sense of Presence that came through me that evening could only have come from my multidimensional energies being fully aligned, right there at the center of my heart chakra, the fulcrum of the Above/the Below/the Before/the Beyond in perfect balance.

And so as I began this blog yesterday, feeling much better physically and letting inspiration flow through me, I realized that I had been living several days in that wonderful state of well-being and contentment that arises from being in the Now.  But that was yesterday....(there's that time thing again.)

Got cranky last night.  I'm grateful it didn't last long.  But my 3D human is still living my life with me and she's not always flowing with the new "rules."  That's why we have been born with a sense of humor.

So I'm back.  Hope this finds all of you in good Spirits.  And if I don't blog again before Thanksgiving, enjoy your turkey or tofurky or whatever quirky variation of tradition you like to bring forth.  It's a whole new day.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Meanderings of my Multidimensional Experience

Last weekend, I had another opportunity to bring multidimensional consciousness to people attending my workshop in Springfield, IL.  I noticed something had changed in me.  As I was going over my notes that morning, instead of feeling slightly overwhelmed about the task before me, which has historically been my experience before I present a workshop, I was feeling excited because I had access to a group of people who really wanted to learn about and experience their 9D self.  Did this mean I was fully connected to my ka?  And that I was no longer stuck in any 4D polarity about getting out into the world?  And if so, what had I done to make this happen? 


While most of my life flows well and is amazingly filled with ease and grace,  getting my work out to a larger audience has been an ongoing challenge for me.  From the time I published my first book, Journey to Wholeness, I suddenly developed fear about public speaking.  Prior to that, it was easy for me to speak before groups, but putting that book out, with its potential to propel me into a bigger professional world, left me suddenly anxious about giving even small presentations.  That was 15 years ago.  


Because of that fear, I was pushed to look more deeply into other lifetime experiences and found that my soul had gone through a lot of trauma from speaking spiritual truth.  I worked very hard at healing this, and while it got considerably better, it wasn't until this past January, when I was able to see my struggle from a multidimensional perspective and realize I was getting caught in 4D duality, that I finally was able to get free.  And it wasn't until I was doing that last bit of preparation last Sunday morning that I realized this had been fully successful.


I remembered a  defining moment when I was preparing for my January multidimensional workshop.  I read over my notes on teaching people that any bit of drama in their lives was a sign they were not navigating 4D effectively.  At the same time, I realized I was feeling some anxiousness about presenting the workshop, and that this was a form of drama,  and therefore a sign I was caught in 4D.  


I'm very committed to walking my talk.  This intent has brought me profound gifts throughout my life since as a healer and teacher, I have to be very astute about identifying and transforming my own issues.  I've learned to recognize what is going on for me pretty quickly and to do whatever I have in my power to do to heal them.  I believe this has saved me from a huge amount of suffering.  So when the 4D awareness hit me, I immediately went inside and looked at the polarity I was stuck in around giving public presentations.  It went something like this:


People will love what I have to say and I will become famous and that will be scary because what if I can't muster the energy, what if I have to sacrifice my personal life to carry this out, what if I have to deal with people projecting all sorts of nonsense onto me and always wanting a piece of me?
OR 
People will hate what I had to say and reject me and say that my teachings are ridiculous or redundant or evil, and who did I think I am anyway?


I took a few deep centering breaths, went inward and did a mini-version of the exercise I was planning to present that afternoon.  First I let myself feel the fear of getting overwhelmed and messing with my very balanced life by everyone wanting a piece of me, projecting on me, etc, and got a good sense of how this felt.  Then I went into the feeling of being rejected and looked down upon, and just let myself experience this.  Finally, I imagined becoming totally spacious and connected to my ka, and from this state of being, invited both of those parts within myself, holding a loving container as I embraced them.  Magically, I could feel the shift.  


As I said above, I have been working in numerous ways for 15 years to bring about that change.  I have  worked diligently to heal the experience of other lifetimes.  I wrote another book about allowing Spirit to lead and quelling ego which I did my best to practice every day.  I pushed myself to be out in public more.  And that was all very useful.  Things improved.  But they did not totally shift until I worked from a 4D perspective.  Now I know even more strongly than before, why bringing multidimensional consciousness to the world is more important than ever.


Of course, given that the Universe has a wicked sense of humor, I came back home to our community and into a hornets' nest of drama.  I was able to do my 4D work and integrate the polarity to some degree, and I could see that ultimately this experience would be growth-producing both individually and collectively.  But oh yeah, I got sick in the process and my ka hit the road for a day or so, and okay okay... trying to be a 9D human might very well attract even more tricky challenges and I might as well keep sucking it up and... of course... keep integrating.


Hope this finds you all well and inspired on this holiday weekend.  The sun is shining here in the mountains, the birds are singing and I'm feeling very grateful to get to hang out in such 3D beauty while being presented with the ongoing lessons of multidimensional Earth school.  If you have any 4D dramas coming your way, remember you can use that integrative technique as well.... or better yet, come to my upcoming workshops.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Planet Falling Apart? Let's go to 6D and bring in the KA body of the Earth

The other day in my morning practice, as I was holding the awareness of myself as a 9D vertical axis of love, I got a flash of how we can heal the Earth by bringing in its Ka body.  After all, if my sense of well-being depends on my ka being in or out, that should be equally true for our planet. If everything we can conceive of has its geometric configuration residing in 6D, a perfected version of Planet Earth must be residing there as well.  Remember 6D geometry replicates in 3D.  So what is stopping the Earth's ka from replicating in a noticeable way in this earth dimension?  And how can we help change things to facilitate this process?

When my ka is out, or not fully activated in my field, it is because I am running resistant energy that keeps it from making its full connection.  Perhaps I am scared, or sad or angry and not quite aligned with those emotions, so my energy is out of sync.  Perhaps my ego is running outside of my control, unable to quiet itself for the Divine to enter.  To change this, I need to notice what is happening.  If I'm paying attention, I'll notice this rather quickly, if I'm not, I may need to start feeling bad before I realize that the hand of consciousness is tapping me on the shoulder.  How bad it has to get is totally up to me.  The sooner I wake up, the sooner I will feel better.  This brings the obvious question:  how bad does it have to get for enough people on our planet to wake up?  And how can we do our part?

When I realize my ka is out, I start taking some deep centering breaths.  I focus on quieting and disengaging from my ego.  Then I go to my heart center and call my ka body back in.  This is an energetic process.  I essentially have to create a loving space and then magnetize my ka to come fully into resonance with me.

Why not the same process for the Earth?  First we need to notice our disconnection.  We've been getting signals about this for eons.  They have intensified in the last several decades.  And now, with the events that have been unfolding in Japan in the last week, they've gotten just about as clear as they can get.  Of course we can always choose to stay in our denial, but it's not what I would recommend.

Let's take a deep collective breath and get centered.  As we take that deep breath, create a conscious intention to breathe both as an individual, and for the Earth.  Look at the ego-driven forces within ourselves and the ego-driven forces on our planet, and energetically calm them down.  Then let's go to our hearts and open them, first for ourselves for being willing to disengage from our egoic needs, and then for Mother Earth to let her know how much we love and appreciate her.  Let her know how sorry we are that she has suffered so much at our hands.  Imagine our Earth right in the middle of our hearts... maybe you can see yourself as holding that full 9D axis when you do this...  so that you have become vast.  Let's hold her in our hearts, love her unconditionally and see the energy field around her clearing so that her ka can enter.  This is a way for us to let her know that we recognize her sacred energy...and that we will get out of her way so she can resonate more fully with her ka body.

We need to do this as well for all the fear that is coming up on the planet.  Imagine holding that fear in our vast hearts and soothing it and calming it.  It is not fear that will change our world, it is love and the commitment to stay conscious that will bring about global transformation.  Hold the frequency of love, hold the frequency of peace, hold the frequency of abundance and creativity.  And remember the more of us that do this, the stronger those mists grow in 6D and the closer we come to living on a spiritually awakened/ spiritually connected planet.

I will hold you all in my heart today as I hold our Mother Earth. 

No funny tag-line on this one.  Rather I'll share the lyrics to a song my husband wrote and wooed me with 32 years ago.  If only we had listened then.

Well I'd go to sleep at dusk
And I'd get up at dawn,
If it would only keep you from turning that nuclear power plant on.
I don't need a stereo, don't need no TV. 
Don't need no atom making electricity for me.

Nuclear radiation, atomic mutation,
It's in our air, Its in our bones.
Not going to be like those dust bowl days,
Gonna be a radiation haze
Getting on you and me...."  

The alarm is going off, time to wake on up.