The Heart (Chakra) of the Matter

I've been really focused these days on what this process of Ascension really means, as well as how to get through kindergarten and get promoted to 1st grade at Ascension Academy. As I've written before, we are at a time in our evolutionary development when we are going from being 3rd dimensional to 5th dimensional beings. Gaia, our Earth and our true mother, is doing the same. That gets more complicated for me, but one thing it tells me: We will still be Earthlings... just 5D Earthlings instead of 3D ones.

The fastest way to accelerating our frequency in order to align us with our 5D selves is to keep opening our hearts, catching our judgments of self and others, and looking deeply at, and working to transform, all other shadow issues as they arise. Transforming shadow, whether it comes as judgment or in another form, happens by observing and naming the shadow, owning the energy and sending it unconditional love. This will shift us from an egoic state into the energy of our heart. 5D is the dimension of LOVE, CREATIVITY and UNITY CONSCIOUSNESS. We cannot hold that frequency without continuously transforming our shadow and clearing our hearts blockages.

It is no surprise then, that all spiritual teachers these days seem to be upping their focus on love as well as on shadow issues that arise with our heart opening. Over the weekend, I attended a wonderful Yoga workshop offered by the lovely, deep and uplifting Laura Wolf. While I attended the workshop because I love Laura and she was back in our area for just a short time, what I had not paid much attention to until the day before, was that the theme of the workshop was about love: specifically about keeping our hearts open even when we are feeling most triggered. Okay then, who doesn't need work on this!

I've noticed in this latest spiral of our evolutionary activation, as we are being challenged to open our hearts, old emotional issues are coming back up for me and for many others in order to get resolved at a new level. As this happens we tend to get triggered more easily than usual, making Laura's theme deeply relevant to our evolutionary imperative. Remember we have to navigate through the 4th dimension in order to get to the 5th. Any unhealed wounding and any undealt with shadow, stays in our energy field and makes the higher dimensional light less accessible. I do not believe this is totally black and white. Who knows if it is even humanly possible to heal all old wounding. (Maybe I'll have that answer when I get into 2nd grade.) Most of us have returned for this incarnation as very old souls. We have multi-layered wounds which is why even after decades of work, they still arise again in one form or the other. Every time we experience an emotional wound, most of us have learned to put up walls over our hearts. We become a little less loving and/or a little more closed down. Sometimes people who have experienced traumatic abuse have been able to keep their hearts open to give love to others, but without healing they are not able to receive love from others, which is equally important.

My old wounds have resurfaced. I first began to get in touch with this about a year ago when I had just started this blog. I was writing about bringing our KA bodies in more fully, and as I was practicing this myself, I noticed a blockage in my back heart chakra. Back heart chakra blockages are old stuck feelings. And sure enough, as time went by, my mother-wounding resurfaced. At first it arose in the same old way. My mother passed away at 92 close to a decade ago. But the wounding for me was so deep, that even without her around to say something unkind or to remind me of her perception that I was a rotten daughter, I still had to process this relationship. (So far this processing has gone on for over 40 years! And I'm a diligent and effective emotional processor.) Still, my habitual strategy which had served me reasonably well, was to re experience my anger... not in a vengeful or resentful way, but in a way that honored the energy around how I had been treated. It released me from any feelings of victimization, and allowed me to energetically set boundaries so that I could honor my own essence.

What I had not fully processed though was the sadness. As a child, like all children, I deeply loved my mother, but what I realized in a new way lately, was that my inner child who was not always treated fairly, was in deep turmoil and grief because as much as she loved her mother, there were also times when she hated her. Since, there was no permission for this child to own any piece of the negative feelings, she was very confused and heart-broken. She was holding the emotional pain of her family, and as I understand now, the emotional pain of the collective. This was both hers and all of the billions of other children on the planet that feel both the depth of this pain and their powerlessness to heal it. In order to survive, this child had to begin to close her heart down. When I recently reconnected with her, I realized that while she still had some anger work that needed to be done, (and I could do this easily,) the most vital, the most important piece of work was to own and honor that excruciating grief. I was able to do both through visualization, felt the release and and knew I had made progress.

The night after the Yoga workshop, I had a very vivid dream. In writing about the dream the next day, I found, much to my surprise, that not only was I grieving for the pain in my immediate family, but that another part of my back heart chakra issue was grief from a disconnection with my extended family, and with two aunts in particular. When I broke away from my mother's expectations in my 20's in order to follow my own spiritual Path, not only did she project her judgments onto me, but she insisted that the rest of the family felt the same. Even though on some level, I knew that wasn't accurate, emotionally I unconsciously bought into this, and in effect lost my connection with my extended family as well as with my mother. Since I was far away geographically, and one of my aunts passed away shortly after this, I didn't give this disconnect much importance at the time. But in processing the dream, I found that I had deep sadness about it, and it was part of my back heart charka blockage. The tears came up suddenly and totally unexpectedly, a sure sign that my heart had opened more. I don't know that all my work is done here, but certainly I have my assignment laid out before me in a much clearer way: maybe my final kindergarten project.

AND, I also see how this works metaphorically for the greater whole. I had to be true to myself and my path. Within my own essence there was no room that allowed me to not chose growth and compromise my truth in order to be accepted. I paid a big price for this. But this is really what we all need to do: We need to be willing to lose it all to be ourselves. And we need to be willing to feel and honor the excruciating grief that may get unleashed in the process.

I'm thinking that maybe I'm getting closer to that 1st grade classroom. This awareness coupled with the experience I had last night and today, while being in a small group led by Andrew Harvey, an amazing mystic, teacher and transformer, has taught me all sorts of things about myself and about our current evolution. This will be the focus of my next blog and I'm quite sure the focus of my 1st grade curriculum. But, what I now can see more clearly than ever, is that as our 3D world dissolves, we do not have the luxury or the right to disown that 3D self. We are multi-dimensional beings and while we may be ascending into 5D, part of what is being asked of us is to heal and strenghten that 3D self as well. As the 3D we know falls apart, we must tend to its pain and wounds as we are simultaneously attending to shifting into the love frequency that will bring us all great joy.

Enough for now, my brother and sisters. But stay tuned. I have a lot more verses coming for this song.

A plunge into the Archetypal Stream

These are magical times.  Sometimes the magic is light and inspiring:  you have a wish, thought, desire one moment and it manifests in the next;  you think of someone you care for and haven't heard from in a long time and suddenly the phone rings or an email pops up.  Sometimes the magic is dark and overwhelming:  an earthquake occurs and nuclear reactors melt and spew radiation into our air and water, and we know without question, we are being lied to and the environmental destruction is daunting and affects us all.

This current journey on Planet Earth calls us to stay more centered and loving than ever.  And, this is a tall task.  To stand in our personal power with loving hearts and a positive vision while all that we believed to be true is crumbling beneath our feet -- now that's something that can build character, evolve your soul and teach you how to walk through your daily life in a state of expanded consciousness, if you have the tools you need to navigate in this new territory.

Because the frequency of our planet is speeding up, our access to higher dimensional awareness is more open than ever, but an essential skill for all of us is to know how to handle 4th Dimension challenges .  Remember 4D is like a canopy over us and when light from the higher dimensions enters it, it splits into positive and negative poles.  There is nothing inherently wrong with that because polarity creates a dynamic energy that brings forth physical manifestation in 3D.  It's the yin/yang, the male/female energy that asks us to hold the energy of sacred union.  But when we we are not consciously holding this integration of opposites, we create duality by getting attached  to one pole or the other.  This creates negative emotional dramas that stress us, distract us, and can, if we are not careful, cause us to behave in ways that are harmful to ourselves, to others, and to our planet.  It's really important to learn how to release this attachment and instead to hold awareness in such a way that we allow the themes of these dramas to flow through us.

To give you a better understanding of 4D dramas that get enacted in 3D, we can look to the Greek gods and goddesses.  According to Hand Clow, these entities actually reside in 4D because all archetypes reside in 4D.  Greek mythology is full of bizarre dramas the Gods/Goddesses engaged in.  It is myths like these that give us important clues about 4D reality.  Archetypes have a force and consciousness but no human body so they like to get us to act out crazy plays for them, perhaps for their entertainment.  Conversely, we have bodies but without the archetypal realm, we would have no symbolic context to understand our nature, so we need these archetypes to better understand ourselves.  These forces reside within us as well, and it is our job to honor these forces without allowing them to do harm.

Many Indigenous cultures were able to stay in what Hand Clow refers to as the archetypal stream.  They created plays and other art forms that allowed these 4D forces to flow through them without turning destructive.  This is exactly what we have to learn to do in order to keep that magic working for rather than against us, both individually and collectively.

Learning self-observation, to view our emotions and emotional responses from a place of objectivity and non-reactivity is the key here.  Whenever we feel ourselves reacting, that's the sign we are getting hung up in the duality of 4D;  we're allowing those archetypes to mess with us.  So notice the signals you get.  An important signal for me is when there is a tightening or intensity in my solar plexus.  This is my sign to stop, to deep breathe and de-brief.  With the vibrational field of the planet speeding up, my experience is that I have to work ever-harder to release attachment to my emotional reactions.  Some days of course, are easier than others.

The technique of ho' oponopono is a useful one here:  it's both simple and remarkably powerful.  For those of you unfamiliar, one simply focuses on whatever is causing the internal discomfort be it fear or judgement, and say these words:  "I love you, I'm sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you."  This phrase has a neutralizing affect if you say it to yourself over and over again until the feeling releases. 

I find journaling works wonders for me.  Once I write the words on a page, it seems like those archetypal responses can flow right through me, freeing my energy and my heart.  Or you might want to say a prayer, meditate, hold a yoga asana:  whatever it takes for you to get free again.

So remember, the first step is awareness.  Begin to notice when these 4D forces are acting on you.  Then figure out which tools work best for you and USE them.  We will all be most grateful.

My KA is in... Life is good

You know those days where you have such a wonderful sense of well-being and inner harmony, where you feel attuned and connected?  That self-actualized sense of Oneness is not just a random occurance, although for many people it might seem that way.  Rather, this is what we feel when our human spirit body, our Ka, which originates and resides in the 6th Dimension, has made its way fully into our 3D body. 

Many of you will notice this feeling comes after Yoga or meditation or profound prayer or after making Love.  This is because those "practices" create a gateway from the 6th Dimension to the 3rd. 

The vibrational frequency of the 6th Dimension has created geometric energy configurations which are the basis for all materialization in 3D.  This is Plato's World of Forms where idealized versions of everything exist before they get "beamed down" and replicated in our 3rd dimensional reality.  They are created from the sacred sounds of the 7th dimension much like the water crystals are created from our words. 

Each of us has a Ka that was created and hangs out in 6D.  Our Ka which holds our full soul's potential, can naturally align with our Earth body if we let it, but fear and stress have disconnected us.  One of our primary evolutionary imperatives these days is to call our ka back in.   In order to do that, it helps to know about the existance of our spirit body and that we each have one.  Then we need to begin to notice when our ka is not "in."  Any time we feel ungrounded or off-center, irritable or generally out of sorts, we are getting a signal that our ka has "hit the road."  For some of you, having your Ka gone, may be your normal state, but it doesn't have to remain that way.

Take a deep centering breath or several.  Even better do that while holding a Yoga asana.  You might try to visualize your glowing spirit body hovering over you and imagine that you have the magnetic force to pull this into your physical body and notice how wonderful that feels.

I'm fully recovered from that flu by the way and my ka is "in."  May yours be as well.

Question for today:  Are crows, those magical birds, really going "caw caw" or "ka ka??"
(Couldn't resist.)