And Yet Another Portal Opens, Bringing Some Soul-Searching Questions

On 11/11 (at 11:11), I attended a pipe ceremony led by Ruby Falconer up on the deck of our Spirit Temple in the Isis Cove community where I live.  We carried the intent to activate yet a deeper level of awakening for our planet.  Ruby has been carrying this Blue Star pipe since the 11/11/11 portal and as she spoke of this anniversary, she also pointed out that 11/11/2011 was an "8" day, and this year, 11/11/2012 falls on a "9" day, the number of completion.  That immediately resonated with me.

I began connecting to the 11:11 consciousness at the Harmonic Convergence held in August of 1987.  The Harmonic Convergence was the first synchronized meditation to collectively welcome a new awakening for planet Earth and thus was the first large portal to bring in the multidimensional consciousness which supports this next evolutionary step for us Earthlings and prepares us for 12/21/12. (I'm sure you've noticed, this is right around the corner.)

That was 25 years ago.  My children were little, my youngest not even a year old.  My husband and I put together a make-shift ceremony for our family at dusk, creating a circle in our yard and sending out prayers for Mother Earth.  At one point, my 4-year-old daughter ran into the family room and returned with a large toy ball decorated with a map of the planet which she was placed in the center of our circle, intuitively helping to create the new "awakened" energy grid which should fully surround our planet by Winter Solstice of this year.

Now, we have arrived at this latest and perhaps last transformative 11:11 portal.  It is the largest thus far, since each successive portal since the Convergence expands exponentially in terms of the amount of higher consciousness it ushers in.  We still have the 12/12 portal and 12/21 portal this year, which interestingly are both "11" days, but the vibration for the 11:11 is completing.  Now we will be called on to integrate all of the awareness we have experienced in the last 25 years and help all beings who wish to, step into the frequency that corresponds to our ascension into the 5D consciousness of New Earth.

I got pretty excited when I thought about that.  While yes, we are still stuck in aspects of 3D polarity, 25 years ago we didn't even understand what we were stuck in. There has been progress. And as Ruby pointed out to me later, 12/12/12 and 12/21/12 are a series of 1 + 2 which of course equals 3.  This represents the "resolution of duality, the third thing."  And the only place we can go with this resolution is out of "polarity" consciousness and into the Unity consciousness of 5D.

A few days ago, while still in this 11:11 window,  John Horneker came to the Cove to speak about Ascension and the New Earth to a group of us at Anyaa McAndrew's Full Moon Sanctuary.  John and I have had a fair number of conversations on this topic, but when I sat in a group listening to him, something connected for me in a new way.

What became most significant was the idea that we really do have to “choose” whether we are willing to release all known attachments if we are going to ride this Ascension wave, at least the early ones. (There may be several waves.) John’s belief is that when we ascend into 5D, we have a whole new planet, whole new structures.  He did say we would be creating with visualization, so ha, I could just create my house for example.  But not likely I could create say, all those great restaurants in nearby Asheville. So clearly, I've been pondering just what my attachments are.  And what it may mean to me if 3D no longer exists on our planet.

I don’t know if it’s my denial or if I’m tuning in differently, but I don’t think the outer change will be that drastic. I see a gradual outer change based on our frequency change (we all agree that ascension is a frequency chage.)  BUT, for instance, how can one keep having our energy company in 5D?  Our banks in 5D?  Our hospitals in 5D?  And why would we want to?  How about this new edition of my Empowering the Spirit book I’m hoping to release in the next month or so?  Why should I bother?  (Well I suppose if there are waves of ascension, then there is a good reason for getting the book out in that form to help others along.)  What about our social security checks and my husband's pension check which allows me the luxury of sitting here writing this blog.  That seems to make no sense in 5D.

This all brings me to main attachment:  my comfortable life.  Unlike many on the planet, I’m content. I’m living the life I want.  Am I ready to wake up in a whole new reality?  Am I ready to have that world based on peace and love that we’ve been putting out to the Universe all these years?  

I feel I’m being called to a deeper level of soul searching here, and perhaps you are too.  On one hand, sure, “bring it on.”  I’ll adjust.  And maybe adjusting in 5D is much easier than adjusting in 3D.  I know that what really brings joy is connecting with our Oneness; connecting with unconditional love.  So it’s a no brainer.  BUT I still have an ego structure.  Will it step in and interfere?  Does it need more preparation? Will it say “hell no, I’m not going to go?  I can’t give up all those yummy restaurants and sipping wine and going to the playground with my grandson and my beautiful mountain home and maybe even my husband.  And what about my kids… are they all on board the 5D train?"

So these are the questions that arise for me as I drop into the energy this latest 11:11 portal.  My Spirit longs for moving ever-closer to Source, while my ego still holds its old agenda. Perhaps the resolution will be spontaneous as we move through the 12/12 and 12/21 portals.  Perhaps my ego will gently go into surrender because the Call for my Spirit is so intense.  That will be lovely.  But just in case, Sister and Brother Earthlings, you might want to ponder what attachments still remain in your life.  And remember, just beam them unconditional love and enjoy the ride.  

Wishing you all a yummy and love-filled Thanksgiving.  
(hmmm... will we still be eating in 5D?  Oh please don't make me give up food....)

Being a 3D/5D person on the old/New Earth

It's been an interesting ride the past few days.  Right now my creativity is surging and my multidimensional connection feels more integrated than ever.  After diving into concern and confusion about what my work was truly to be and become, if it was to be and become anything more at all, Spirit tapped me on the shoulder and said "HA!  Ye of little trust... haven't you learned anything!"  Okay.  Okay.  Spirit did tap me on the shoulder and give me some very clear Guidance about the next step of my sacred work, and I simultaneously felt Her loving and gentle humor about the mental/emotional gyrations I've been putting myself through.  But somehow I don't think She would have phrased things quite like that. "Haven't you learned anything!" sounds like my inner 3D judge who, masquerading as Spirit, sneaked right in.

As we are riding this first wave of our ascension process from 3D beings to 5D beings, I'm suspecting I'm not the only one going through some bi-polar dances.  Here's what I wrote a few days ago when I first began this posting:
        
       Feeling stuck back in 3D again... but that's okay.  I know on some level it's part of my process.  As I expand energetically, there seems to be an almost equal period of contraction.  Interesting huh since that is one of the main laws of Newtonian physics, (for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction) or put differently, a primary physical law of the third dimension.
       I was surprised though as this contracted state almost immediately followed a lovely one-day workshop that I taught with Anyaa McAndrew on Activating Our Multidimensional Potential.  We have been getting plenty of emails from our students saying how good they feel -- but, hmmmmm, at least this teacher is experiencing something quite different.

Now that I am at the manic pole, (or at least I was until my husband walked in and we started bickering about ridiculous stuff, which put me momentarily back in the depressive pole,)  I see the magical interweaving of energy; I feel the perfection of the Universe I live in. And I see, yet again, this ecstatic dance is much more fun than doing the bi-polar jig that likes to spin us around and around.

So what's up here?  I know that it is optimum to maintain that lovely sense of equanimity and presence. I know being reactive to all outer stimulation simply disconnects me from my center and Divine wisdom.  And certainly I have worked long and hard at this, practicing over and over the joy of non- reactivity.  SO, why have I been recently so reactive?

As one of those human creatures that I share the planet with, I realize that we never just learn a lesson and then are done with it at least not in the 3rd dimension.  When we are talking about emotional and spiritual healing and development, we are talking about learning the same lesson over and over in a multitude of variations.  AND, while on an individual level I have Saturn transiting my natal Jupiter which is rather a bi-polar energy to start with, I feel this is part of the larger and more generalizable cycle which we are all passing through on our way to Unity Consciousness.

The Mayan calendar ends in 14 days.  We are in the final day of the final underworld:  an 18 day period which is the very last segment of a 16.4 billion year evolutionary cycle.  On the 28th of this month, all of the 9 major cycles or underworlds of the last 16.4 billion years are scheduled to culminate.  How can we not all be feeling this? Our cellular memories are amped up to the max, while the demands of daily life seems to match the intensity of this vibration.

What I have been consistently bringing my awareness back to is the 2 cardinal rules of our present evolution into 5D beings:  1.  Keep opening both the heart and the high heart   2.  Notice and release judgement.  Are you rolling in the aisles yet??  Piece of cake you say?  Surely the evolution-gods and goddesses are yukking it up watching us Earthlings struggle with things that are to become as normal as breathing. But the reality is that these are the biggest challenges for pretty much all of us.  

Let's start with the first concept... that of an open heart and high heart that is filled with unconditional Divine love.  The state that is guaranteed to bring us ongoing bliss.  How many of you were given unconditional love as children?  How many of you had parents who were themselves loved unconditionally, and therefore had a model, or in those days, even the concept of what unconditional love is?   When we have not experienced unconditional love as children, we don't have the natural ability to give this to ourselves.  It's far easier for us to feel unworthy than to feel totally and completely deserving of that magnificent love which we all do deserve. It's far easier for us to feel not good enough than to embrace the perfection of who we really are.  It's far easier for us to get stuck in our egos and therefore in 4D duality, than in the flow of Divine light.

I had an interesting intuitive reading about 10 years ago when I went to a 1/2day workshop on how to publish your spiritual book.  I was told that I wasn't ready to really get out there because I didn't love myself.  I was shocked.  I thought I loved myself.  I thought I had worked all that stuff through years before.  But as I sat with it and really connected with the information, I realized that liking myself and loving myself were not the same.  I had a positive self-concept, but I had not even begun to allow myself to feel the energy of full self-love.  I've had many more moments of that since then, but certainly it has not been consistent... and I'm a pretty together person.  If I've been struggling with it, I would say there's a pretty darn good chance that you have been struggling with this as well.

Unconditional love is an energy.  It's a frequency.  It probably gets swirled out of 9D in some form, gets revved up in 8D, the dimension where Divine love resides, and seeps into the cellular structure of the beings in 5D.  These 5D beings are filled with unconditional love.  It is their nature.  They have, thus far existed above the 4D canopy of duality.  BUT, times are changing.  We Earthlings are ascending, so this has to be shaking up the 9D vertical axis, in addition to shaking up our world.  We are turning into 5D beings but different from the existing 5D beings because we have not always loved ourselves and therefore do not come to unconditional love easily.

Here's some questions to ponder as you go through this process.  Can you love yourself for having to struggle with loving yourself unconditionally?  Can you love yourself for having to struggle with loving others unconditionally?  WHAT does that feel like when you are in a state of pure unconditional love?  Make a mental note when you are there... that will help this show up in your energy field and therefore in your life, more and more frequently.

And what about judgment?!  See if you can go for a day without judging yourself or someone else.  Let me know if you succeed.  Judgments are like clouds in our dimension. They just keep coming.  But unlike clouds, they create tension and constriction and ego inflation.  We want to notice them, which begins to neutralize their energy, but then we might be inclined to judge the tension and constriction and ego inflation as soon as we notice it, and on and on it goes. Like clouds, however, I believe we can learn to just notice the judgments and watch them pass with out getting stuck in their energy.  But these days there sure seem to be a lot of them and I have to really be on my toes, and go very gently with myself.

So how about you out there my fellow Earthlings?  Have the judgments on yourself and others seem to have shown up more frequently?    Do you judge the judgments?  Do you judge yourself judging the judgments?  Wouldn't it be lovely if we could just let all of this fall away like the autumn leaves as they float down on the wind, no longer needed by the trees.

We are in the seesaw/teeter totter time:  up and down, down and up, and ahhhhhh.... there it is -- that moment we find the perfect balance, effortlessly suspended in grace and harmony.  Breathe deep.  Enjoy.  And hold the awareness that at some point, we are likely to make a move that shifts the balance yet again.  We are just in Ascension kindergarten after all.

The Solstice Portals: Getting Ready for the Big Blast

It's Summer Solstice today, one of the two most powerful days of the year, and exactly a year and 1/2 from the highly prophesized Winter Solstice of 2012.  I've been thinking a lot about what I believe will happen on that day in 2012, and what we need to be doing to get ready.  


Much of what I've learned and have been teaching about for decades, is that humanity is in the process of taking an evolutionary leap.  This evolutionary process has been accelerating on the planet since the harmonic Convergence of 1987 and is due to culminate next year on December 21st.  It is a leap of consciousness, giving  humanity the opportunity to create a New Earth based on love, peace, spiritual maturity and harmony.  It is no accident that Eckhart Tolle's book by that name became a best seller a few years ago, and the internet series that he and Oprah Winfrey offered was watched by millions!  We can all feel this happening.  Both humans and the planet itself keep vibrating more quickly, at a higher and higher frequency.  On a cellular level, this means that we have become more like light: we are literally becoming en-lightened. 


From a multidimensional perspective, this vibratory shift means we are learning to hold the frequency of 5D.  On our 9 dimensional vertical axis, the vibration of 5D is the only higher dimension that is compatible with our 3D biology.  Remember 5D holds the frequency of love and creativity.  It also holds Unity Consciousness.  Somewhere in the early 90's, spiritual teachers everywhere spontaneously began to help people open their hearts.  While the 60's mantra of "peace and love" was of course, an important predecessor, what has been happening for the last 20 or so years has taken this further.  People have been healing their heart wounds  which has allowed them to open their heart chakras more and more.  It now is common language to hear phrases like "speaking from one's heart" or "coming from one's heart."  It's also important to realize that healing those emotional wounds helped us get free from the duality of the 4D canopy and allowed it to become more permeable, thus opening us to the frequencies of the higher dimensions. 


Some people, of course, get stuck in fear as the ground beneath us shakes us loose of the old ways.  They hold tighter to old thought and behavior patterns.  The special interest groups behind our institutions are equally afraid and are vehemently and passionately attempting to stop and reverse this planetary process.  While that will make it harder for some, I have no doubt that we have hit the point of no return.  This is happening, and the more of us that get on board, the more gentle this shift will be.  I believe we are being asked to send love to those who are afraid, including to the institutions and people who run them.  The irony is we will truly all benefit from this change and be able to live richer, more fulfilling lives even if we sacrifice wealth and power.


We know the old must die to the new, and so while I hold the vision of us ushering in the Golden age that has been predicted from numerous sources throughout the ages, I also know that the death throes of our old world can be very painful.  The weather alone caused from the Earth changes are daunting.  I don't remember losing electricity as a child or for that matter for most of my adult life.  Now to get through the year without losing electric power is something to be grateful for as the frequency and intensity of storms, tornadoes, blizzards and hurricane continues to grow.  We are also re-learning a lesson that many of us began to glean in the late 60's and early 70's:  we need to become more and more self-sufficient and sustainable.  I remember the old bumper sticker that many of my friends had: "Think Globally, Act Locally."  While that was good advice back then, it is essential information for our current and coming times.  Figure out how to create your own electricity or to live well without it.  Make sure you have a good supply of food and water on hand.  But most importantly clear out any blocks to your being resourceful, creative, cooperative and kind should you be thrown into a crisis situation.


This year's Solstice is wedged between 3 eclipses in 4 weeks.  Lightworkers.org gives a lovely summary of what these eclipses mean for us.   Peggy Black, one of the site's channels, speaks of eclipses as portals to "Bathe Our Consciousness in New Energy."  She goes on to explain that this is a time where we can activate amazing shifts in both our individual lives and the collective... AND, (this is key for what I'm really wanting to write about today) "It is so important to remember that we are the anchors - the chalices - for this DIVINE EVOLUTIONARY SHIFT"  (www.lightworkers.org entry 6/15/11)


This is exactly what I'm getting intuitively.  The night before I read this, I was talking with my husband and pondering what is really being asked of us as preparation for 2012.   I got so clearly that on 12/21/12 the biggest portal of all would open, and that we need to keep expanding our abilities as receptors for this new frequency.  The chalice image is perfect.  As each new portal opens,  and Solstices, just like eclipses are a time when amazingly powerful portals open, we are being bombarded with ever-higher frequency light.  This light is holding transformative intelligence that will allow us to activate and hold this planetary shift.  When I hear talk about us being in an ascension process, this is what it means to me: we will ascend to (in other words be vibrating at or close to the same speed as) 5D frequency, yet still be walking in our 3D bodies on what we will still feel, look and sound like a 3D planet.

Hand Clow explains the change in frequency is coming from the gamma rays which have been hitting the Earth since 1998, as the Earth moves into what she calls the Photon band.  She gives a lovely scientific explanation about how these gamma rays carry consciousness to us.  What I saw and heard loud and clear as the receptor image came to me,  is that we are the Holy Grail.  On Winter Solstice 2012, we are quite literally going to be blasted with this energy.  Remember Galactic Center is 9D and it has been moving into conjunction with our Winter Solstice Sun which is at 29% Sagitarrius, since the late 90's.  The winter solstice of 2010 also coincided with a very powerful eclipse. The energies keep increasing, and the energy from the portal of 12/21/12 may exceed our wildest imagination.  In order to utilize it at its best, we need to keep readying ourselves to receive this powerful and beautiful energy.   We are developing rapidly and being asked to get those chalices ready for the BIG BLAST of light.


I presented yet another workshop on multidimensionality this weekend.  This workshop was a 2-day event taught with my dear friend and colleague, Anyaa McAndrew.  We had a circle of 12 of her students.  Once again I was awed to see how this multidimensional model informed people to tune in and refine what they already knew.  And as always, it inspires me when I see the number of people who are conscious and stepping into their higher dimensional frequency.


I believe in my heart there will be enough of us being chalices, receptors... for the big frequency blast.  And I hope it will be a great celebratory event, and we'll be having a blast as we used to say in the early 60's.  I hope too that we will tell the story to our future generations, that this was a magical and transformative time and nothing has ever been quite the same since.


So get ready for the party, my fellow-Earthlings.  Keep doing your inner work.  Keep opening your hearts and shining out love.  Keep putting your roots in the core of Gaia.  .... "For the times they are a-changin...."