Being a 3D/5D person on the old/New Earth

It's been an interesting ride the past few days.  Right now my creativity is surging and my multidimensional connection feels more integrated than ever.  After diving into concern and confusion about what my work was truly to be and become, if it was to be and become anything more at all, Spirit tapped me on the shoulder and said "HA!  Ye of little trust... haven't you learned anything!"  Okay.  Okay.  Spirit did tap me on the shoulder and give me some very clear Guidance about the next step of my sacred work, and I simultaneously felt Her loving and gentle humor about the mental/emotional gyrations I've been putting myself through.  But somehow I don't think She would have phrased things quite like that. "Haven't you learned anything!" sounds like my inner 3D judge who, masquerading as Spirit, sneaked right in.

As we are riding this first wave of our ascension process from 3D beings to 5D beings, I'm suspecting I'm not the only one going through some bi-polar dances.  Here's what I wrote a few days ago when I first began this posting:
        
       Feeling stuck back in 3D again... but that's okay.  I know on some level it's part of my process.  As I expand energetically, there seems to be an almost equal period of contraction.  Interesting huh since that is one of the main laws of Newtonian physics, (for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction) or put differently, a primary physical law of the third dimension.
       I was surprised though as this contracted state almost immediately followed a lovely one-day workshop that I taught with Anyaa McAndrew on Activating Our Multidimensional Potential.  We have been getting plenty of emails from our students saying how good they feel -- but, hmmmmm, at least this teacher is experiencing something quite different.

Now that I am at the manic pole, (or at least I was until my husband walked in and we started bickering about ridiculous stuff, which put me momentarily back in the depressive pole,)  I see the magical interweaving of energy; I feel the perfection of the Universe I live in. And I see, yet again, this ecstatic dance is much more fun than doing the bi-polar jig that likes to spin us around and around.

So what's up here?  I know that it is optimum to maintain that lovely sense of equanimity and presence. I know being reactive to all outer stimulation simply disconnects me from my center and Divine wisdom.  And certainly I have worked long and hard at this, practicing over and over the joy of non- reactivity.  SO, why have I been recently so reactive?

As one of those human creatures that I share the planet with, I realize that we never just learn a lesson and then are done with it at least not in the 3rd dimension.  When we are talking about emotional and spiritual healing and development, we are talking about learning the same lesson over and over in a multitude of variations.  AND, while on an individual level I have Saturn transiting my natal Jupiter which is rather a bi-polar energy to start with, I feel this is part of the larger and more generalizable cycle which we are all passing through on our way to Unity Consciousness.

The Mayan calendar ends in 14 days.  We are in the final day of the final underworld:  an 18 day period which is the very last segment of a 16.4 billion year evolutionary cycle.  On the 28th of this month, all of the 9 major cycles or underworlds of the last 16.4 billion years are scheduled to culminate.  How can we not all be feeling this? Our cellular memories are amped up to the max, while the demands of daily life seems to match the intensity of this vibration.

What I have been consistently bringing my awareness back to is the 2 cardinal rules of our present evolution into 5D beings:  1.  Keep opening both the heart and the high heart   2.  Notice and release judgement.  Are you rolling in the aisles yet??  Piece of cake you say?  Surely the evolution-gods and goddesses are yukking it up watching us Earthlings struggle with things that are to become as normal as breathing. But the reality is that these are the biggest challenges for pretty much all of us.  

Let's start with the first concept... that of an open heart and high heart that is filled with unconditional Divine love.  The state that is guaranteed to bring us ongoing bliss.  How many of you were given unconditional love as children?  How many of you had parents who were themselves loved unconditionally, and therefore had a model, or in those days, even the concept of what unconditional love is?   When we have not experienced unconditional love as children, we don't have the natural ability to give this to ourselves.  It's far easier for us to feel unworthy than to feel totally and completely deserving of that magnificent love which we all do deserve. It's far easier for us to feel not good enough than to embrace the perfection of who we really are.  It's far easier for us to get stuck in our egos and therefore in 4D duality, than in the flow of Divine light.

I had an interesting intuitive reading about 10 years ago when I went to a 1/2day workshop on how to publish your spiritual book.  I was told that I wasn't ready to really get out there because I didn't love myself.  I was shocked.  I thought I loved myself.  I thought I had worked all that stuff through years before.  But as I sat with it and really connected with the information, I realized that liking myself and loving myself were not the same.  I had a positive self-concept, but I had not even begun to allow myself to feel the energy of full self-love.  I've had many more moments of that since then, but certainly it has not been consistent... and I'm a pretty together person.  If I've been struggling with it, I would say there's a pretty darn good chance that you have been struggling with this as well.

Unconditional love is an energy.  It's a frequency.  It probably gets swirled out of 9D in some form, gets revved up in 8D, the dimension where Divine love resides, and seeps into the cellular structure of the beings in 5D.  These 5D beings are filled with unconditional love.  It is their nature.  They have, thus far existed above the 4D canopy of duality.  BUT, times are changing.  We Earthlings are ascending, so this has to be shaking up the 9D vertical axis, in addition to shaking up our world.  We are turning into 5D beings but different from the existing 5D beings because we have not always loved ourselves and therefore do not come to unconditional love easily.

Here's some questions to ponder as you go through this process.  Can you love yourself for having to struggle with loving yourself unconditionally?  Can you love yourself for having to struggle with loving others unconditionally?  WHAT does that feel like when you are in a state of pure unconditional love?  Make a mental note when you are there... that will help this show up in your energy field and therefore in your life, more and more frequently.

And what about judgment?!  See if you can go for a day without judging yourself or someone else.  Let me know if you succeed.  Judgments are like clouds in our dimension. They just keep coming.  But unlike clouds, they create tension and constriction and ego inflation.  We want to notice them, which begins to neutralize their energy, but then we might be inclined to judge the tension and constriction and ego inflation as soon as we notice it, and on and on it goes. Like clouds, however, I believe we can learn to just notice the judgments and watch them pass with out getting stuck in their energy.  But these days there sure seem to be a lot of them and I have to really be on my toes, and go very gently with myself.

So how about you out there my fellow Earthlings?  Have the judgments on yourself and others seem to have shown up more frequently?    Do you judge the judgments?  Do you judge yourself judging the judgments?  Wouldn't it be lovely if we could just let all of this fall away like the autumn leaves as they float down on the wind, no longer needed by the trees.

We are in the seesaw/teeter totter time:  up and down, down and up, and ahhhhhh.... there it is -- that moment we find the perfect balance, effortlessly suspended in grace and harmony.  Breathe deep.  Enjoy.  And hold the awareness that at some point, we are likely to make a move that shifts the balance yet again.  We are just in Ascension kindergarten after all.

Is it a Bird? Is it A Plane? No, It's the Blue Star Kachina and the Message is Strong and Clear.

Comet Elenin is heading our way.  It will be closest to Earth, and between Earth and our Sun, on September 26th.  In a new interview from Carl Johan Callemann, he talks about the likelihood of this comet being the Blue Star Kachina as prophesied by the Hopi Indians. Its arrival is considered an important heralding of a whole new consciousness on the planet, collectively taking us from the 3D limitations of ego-bound humans, to the unlimited multidimensional experience of ourselves as cosmic beings; from a species using its limited nature to create a life aimed at fulfilling material needs and desires, to humans who are living out their full evolutionary and spiritual potential basing their lives on serving the higher good.

Of course, this idea is nothing new.  We have all been speaking of this in one form or another since the 60's when the idea of the coming of the Age of Aquarius first made its way into our collective awareness.  Suddenly there were large numbers of us discovering that reality was quite a bit vaster than our limited upbringings had suggested, that our psyches were able to reach new places of consciousness that standard education would find unthinkable, and that peace on the planet and caring about the well-being of all was the most important criteria for society.  We passionately believed we could change the world, and I believe that we have.  In the arrogance and impatience of our youth, we believed that would happen quite quickly.  Instead we are still struggling with many of the same issues of social justice, environmental stewardship, peace, equality and tolerance that we espoused back then.  However, while outer progress in many areas has been minimal, what has happened inside so many of us, has been amazing.

We have not been able to stop the trashing of our beautiful planet which is heartbreaking, nor have we have not been able to stop violence, war and poverty, but we have made huge strides in gender equality, minority rights, gay marriage and other LGBT issues.  And while family violence and sexual abuse and assault are sadly still prevalent, they are no longer seen as tolerable by the vast majority of people on the globe, and there are a multitude of services available for victims of both, as well as treatment for perpetrators of that violence and abuse. Huge numbers of us have succeeded in becoming personally empowered by healing our emotional/psychological wounds which means that we are able to hold within us the energy of peace, love and fairness for all living things. We are able to truly open our hearts which is the essence of what is needed to usher in this new era on the planet.  I believe that enough of us have been able to activate our higher emotional and spiritual nature to hold this new consciousness and create the world that so many of us have dreamed of.

A few days ago, while on my daily walk up the mountain to the Blue Star Medicine Wheel and Spirit temple deck in my community, I felt that I was given a clear message of what I was supposed to write about in this week's blog.  Standing in the middle of the medicine wheel which is designed as a 6 pointed star, and which rests on a piece of land that feels like a portal to higher dimensional consciousness, I heard that I needed to contact Comet Elenin, and hear what she/he had to say.

Here's what I heard:

“I am heading toward your planet to carry out a powerful task to call out to Humanity that the Change is Now and there is nothing to fear.  My blue light heralds a time of deeper Collective wisdom for those dwellers on Planet Earth – I bring an energetic vibration that might shake things up a bit in order to jar those who still have attachments to the old out of their box-like thinking and into a spiral perspective that understands the Cosmic influences outside the realm of duality.  Not all will come on board and that is fine indeed for Earth is a place of free will and the will to be free and so I will pass through at this very critical time in the evolutionary development of your Planet to open the higher chakra consciousness of those who have some readiness… but my tail will follow and after the initial connection, there will be ongoing energy that I will still be able to blast or share with Earthlings.

Yours is a beautiful and powerful planet indeed, and my task is an honor.  All matter is energy and all energy holds consciousness.  Some has such defuse consciousness that there is little they wish to put into focus, but it is different with me.  I, as a comet, am entirely focused.  That is what happens when Energy collects into the Comet configuration.  Understand that I am a spiral, but one that is being stretched out and propelled and so I can travel and direct this spiral energy in a way that no other physical form is yet able to do.

You can prepare for my spiral energy by feeling and imagining this configuration. Imagine it entering through the crown of your head.  Stay in awareness of that meeting place of the 6^th and 7^th chakras within.  Feel it activate your pineal gland.  Enjoy the visions that it brings forth for you and do not be concerned if they are vivid or vague, you will all feel something if you are willing to go into silence and allow.  I have been informing your planet for many years now, and as I get closer I become even more accessible to you.  Your willingness to receive my gift with love will energize my cells and I will move onto other tasks carrying that with me, informing others in this vast Cosmos of ours…"

It's not everyday I have a conversation with a comet, or with any celestial body for that matter.  But what we are used to doing everyday is changing.  So perhaps I will find myself doing this more frequently.  Look within for what you are being asked to do; for what you are being asked to change, for what you are being asked to contribute.  We have been in labor for this new world for quite a while now, and we are now entering the 3rd stage of the delivery process.  Keep holding that image for all of us that the birth be safe and easy and that this beautiful and loving world about to be born arrives surrounded by so many loving beings, it only has to sigh and gurgle and be the magnificent Self that it is.

There are 2 more comets heading our way this Fall.  I suspect that each has a different task, just as each of us carries our own unique purpose.  I don't claim to know what each of them brings (although I suppose I could try the same process with them as I have with Elenin), but I know that we are standing in a phenomenal portal of time.  And that this portal is bringing in a frequency of energy that is transforming every cell that resides in our world.  Remember that the most important message, the most important thing we can all do is to open our hearts and keep them that way, loving ourselves, loving each other, loving our beautiful Earth and this is what allows the Age that we are moving into to truly be a Golden Age.

I'm signing off here with deep love in my heart for all that is, and for all of you, and with a strong conviction that we will come through this amazing transformation, more healthy and radiant than ever before.

Are We All Dying... to Get Better?

My mother-in-law is due to die any time now.  She's 90 and suffering from a brain tumor which is beginning to close down her biological systems.  Yes, I'm sad.  She was/is a great lady and a wonderful mother-in-law.  And going through this also has me pondering the phenomenon we call death, and makes me wonder about death from a multidimensional point of view.


There are two Egyptian concepts that speak to this.  One is the ka, our energy body that holds all our potential for this lifetime, and the other is the ba, which is our soul essence. The ka is part of the 9D vertical axis and seems to be created from an interplay between 3D and 6D.  The ba which is immortal, brings in a broader horizontal view of multidimensionality, because it is the Essence that keeps reincarnating.  Since linear time is an illusion and all time actually occurs simultaneously, than our ba is actually existing on several timelines at once.  It is conceivable that a fully conscious person would have a sense of all their ba manifestations. 

The ancient Egyptians believed that the ka body actually hangs out on the planet after one has transitioned, because the person's energy doesn't die.  I knew a very advanced Yoga Nidra teacher who would meditate at the morgue with cadavers to connect with the energy of the person who had passed. What we consider to be ghosts or specters can occur because of the ka.  Objects a person owns hold their ka energy as well. And does this energy somehow transfer to the genetic pool of one's offspring, grandchildren, great grandchildren as the Egyptians believed? 


I think after a while, the ka energy would transform and dissipate.  But since our ka is a 6D phenomenon, what happens in that dimension after a person passes?  Does their ka just begin to fizzle out because the 3D connection is gone?  Does that geometric light pattern automatically replicate in one's gene pool?  What happens to people who don't have biological children?  At some point I imagine this energy configuration goes through a transformation -- become transpersonal rather than personal.  Could this be what our collective cellular memory is made of?

What we do know is that death is a very 3D experience.  There is no biological decay in the higher dimensions.  There is decay in 2D, the realm of the crystals and elements, bacteria and viruses, but the decay in that realm is very slow.  Elements and crystals may erode, but they still function as elements and crystals. Our physical bodies, however, and the bodies of all sentient beings and plant life on the planet go through this birth and death cycle pretty quickly in the world of linear time.


As humans in 3D, we are in a unique position because we know our bodies will die and that more than likely we'll be watching as this happens.  What does this mean for our psyches?  When one is 95 and knows that death is inevitably coming soon, but not necessarily knowing what will cause this transition to occur and when this transition will happen, what is that like?  I suppose one must either go for complete surrender, release control and live in the moment, (my first choice) or one goes into a state of anxiety and/or denial. 


When my mother-in-law passes, what will happen to her ba and her ka?  If the Egyptians are accurate, once her body goes, her ba will get released and continue to reincarnate until it reaches a level of consciousness, a level of illumination, to re-merge with Source.  Maybe that ba will come in as one of my grandchildren.  What about her ka, her unique energy body?  Will she just reconfigure into another geometric pattern in 6D.


As we go through this ascension process with our frequency speeding up, will that slow the 3D decay?  Is it already?  I'm about to turn 65 in a few weeks.  I'm a long way from old, although that age has been labelled old in our culture.  Certainly exercise, good nutrition, and good genes all help, but is there something more happening for all of us?


Or is this just a lot of ba humbug-ing?  And way beyond our ka-prehension?

It's Unity Consciousness Time: Let's Put Humpty Back Together Again

Yesterday Uranus moved into the sign of Aries, increasing the intensity of revolutionary and evolutionary energy coming onto our planet and into our 3D reality.  Uranus is also squaring the planet Pluto which rules atomic energy and represents profound and often explosive forces of transformation.  Two days earlier, we moved into the 9th and final wave of the Mayan calendar -- the pinnacle of a billion year evolutionary process:  Earth has been prepared for and now is finally moving into Unity Consciousness. 

So what did you expect?  An Earthquake?  A Tsunami?  Explosions at a nuclear power plant?   (The Divine with a wicked sense of humor?)  In our hearts, if we are able to look within, we know these are only external manifestations of what is going on in the collective unconscious and what is going on in each of our psyches. 

I think of the Yeats' poem  "The Second Coming" (one of the great poems of the 20th century):

 "Turning and turning in the widening gyre, the falcon cannot hear the falconer;  things fall apart, the center cannot hold... And what rough beast, its hour come at last, slouches toward Bethlehem to be born?" 

The center is not holding.  Nature is totally out of whack. The great Fibonacci spiral, a spiral that is replicated over and over again in nature, (conch shells being an easy reference point) and which spins time and reality out of galactic center in 9D is spinning our world apart for this great transformation to occur.  The hour has come at last, and we are both the beast and the Messiah. 

We need to embrace this earthquake, this tsunami, this nuclear explosion.  We need to feel it inside of us.  This is the power of Earth, Water and Fire spinning out of control and pleading with us to bring balance.  It asks us to bring forth the element of Air:  New Vision, Aquarian and humanitarian ideals... this is the way we will heal our world.  We need to collect all the fragmented pieces, all the power and pain, and hold them in our hearts bathing them in love and acceptance, and knowing in the deepest reaches of our souls that we can make this transformation happen;  we can birth this New Earth.

Remember we are truly One with all that is, whether we are able or willing to admit this to ourselves.   We are so much larger than our physical bodies.  We are beings that hold within us 9 dimensions of consciousness reaching from the core of Mother Earth to the heart of the Milky Way.  We are vast and we can do this: we can put Humpty back together. 

The patriarchy model that tells us "some great King or our great Father in the sky" will fix it for us, is over. We will fix it ourselves through love, through consciousness.  Together we will hold all the polar forces, all the fears and the pain and the grief... we will hold this and our Earth in our hearts and redeem our planet.

If your life and/or your beliefs are toppling, remember that's just part of the process.  Love yourself for the experience and plant your feet firmly in the core of the Earth.

Not that I mean to egg you on or anything. ...Remember when life hands you a broken egg, make an omelet.  ...Time to break out of that old shell.  Okay okay, I'll stop, but just for now.